Life in General

It's July today, for those who haven't looked at their calendar today. I'm a brilliant observer, I know. This summer is flying by! And without my permission! I mean, I haven't even had the chance to make it to the beach yet! So many summer-type things to do, and it's already July. I guess I just need to be more intentional.

Life has been going well lately. Nothing too exciting, if you can't tell by my rant on the date. I don't do much besides work and lounge around. Sometimes I'm lucky enough to lounge with other people. Sometimes, I have to entertain myself. But overall I'm enjoying it. I'm ready to attack some more wedding stuff, though. We were so hard core about it last month, but we've taken a break and now I'm ready to go back at it. Anthony and I just need to have time to talk and make decisions. Finding time when we are both free is the issue. But hopefully it will happen soon.

I've also recently been hit with a phenomenon that has never happened to me before (this might be an exaggeration, but it's mostly true); I have been struggling with contentedness (is that a word? I think so. I think I'm losing all my intelligence now that I'm out of school). I have always been the kind of person to really, truly enjoy where I am. I'm not one to dwell too much in the past or be too anxious about the future. When I was in high school, I enjoyed being in high school. Sure, I was excited about college when it happened, but I was never one of those people who couldn't wait to get out of here. The same rang true for college. I just have always enjoyed being where I am when I'm there. Recently, however, I find myself so impatient for the next part of my life. I feel like I'm in some sort of limbo, just passing time until Anthony and I get married and start "real" life. I know this isn't true. I know that I should cherish this time with my family and this time with barely any bills. Yet, sometimes I just get so dang impatient. I want to be married. I want to have a place of my own to live. And gosh darn it, I want a real job! Sounds selfish, huh? But I think God's working on me and my attitude to see His hand in my life. Maybe someday I won't be so selfish in my thinking. It's a slow process with someone stubborn like me.

On a brighter and more exciting note (if you're still reading this awfully long post), I get to see some wonderful people that I love on Thursday!! And I get to enjoy and evening out at a baseball game watching fireworks. What I thought was a small event that maybe a couple people could come to, has turned into a reunion of sorts with people coming from out of town. Now I have a full house on Thursday night for a great sleepover, and I am very excited. So I have some good things to look forward too, even if I do work on the fourth and even if I do work all day Saturday.

Ok, I should stop before I ramble on to eternity. Hope all is well in cyberspace. Or at least with you, Anthony, since you are the only person I know of who reads this :)

Adios!